"There is a strong stillness deep within me, the place where God lives. He is not pulled in ten thousand directions and in Him, neither am I," says Emily Freeman on Ann Voskamp's website "A Holy Experience." 


"In Him, neither am I."  I think that is so true.  So often, with kids with special needs, with a path chosen that is different from so many others, and the path is lonely.  I get weary and burdened and isolated based on the needs of my kids.  Yet I feel no compulsion to change our course. No drive to jump on the train everyone else is on.  It is very clear to me what path God has chosen for us.  I cannot change the needs of my children. I cannot change that homeschooling is the best fit for us right now, the right calling for us right now.  We have doctor appointments and therapy, medicines that sometimes take us half the morning to drink, body reactions that need to be monitored, fatigue and naps that need to be accommodated, allergy-free food that needs to be prepared.  I cannot change any of it.  And so, with certainty, we follow this path.  This very narrow path that is different from many others.  It is focused.  It is unknown.  It is wearisome.  It is lonely.  It is difficult.  But there is a peace that comes with acceptance of this path.  We embrace the good days.  We rejoice on the days we get to spend with friends.  We rest in thankfulness on the days where there is health and smiles and play.  Those are the moments we treasure, and they are all the more meaningful in-between the days that are hard.  But even on the difficult days, we know, this is our path, God is our comfort and Savior, and we dig deep to remember the reward of the good days.  The blessing of the good moments.